Caputo departed band

Despite the growing success of “Weeds” and the band’s mainstream attention, Caputo departed the band shortly after the release of Soul Searching Sun in September 1997. Caputo was struggling with internalised gender dysphoria and was becoming disillusioned with the masculine image of herself she was faking at the time. “What good is my success if I can’t even enjoy my fucking soul and my body?’ I wanted to come out then, but failed miserably and didn’t have the courage or the knowhow. I didn’t know what to do.” Caputo decided to distance herself from the band completely; “It took me to quit the band because I wasn’t being true to myself. I had to get away from my band, the label, everyone I worked with.” At the time, the band did not understand Caputo’s reasons for wanting to quit the band, with Alan Robert saying, “She just [told the band] she was in too much pain to continue.”